Author Archives: thebadgerspath

“I don’t know what lies around the bend, but I’m going to believe that the best does.” – Anne of Green Gables. I saw a nice print of this quote from one of my favorite stories and decided to hang it in the entry to our home. Tonight while in a tense discussion about theContinue reading “Isn’t it Ironic”

I wonder. I wonder – is my mind so permanently damaged that its automatic reaction to a bad situation is suicidal musings? Or is my life so far simply entrenched in unavoidable situations I can’t escape and in lieu of hope I just want an end to existing? I was trapped in the confines ofContinue reading “I Can’t Run This Clock Out”

I had hoped to prove Arnold wrong. Man you know you’re effed up when you hope your neurologist appointment will tell you that you have a brain tumor. At least that would have a course of action. But, no, another appointment another stumped doctor. Sigh.

I’ve never been afraid of dying. I don’t pretend to know what comes after our body fails, but I have no reason to believe it could possibly be worse than the struggles I’ve endured in this life. At worse our spirit continues on enduring trials like it’s always endured, at best we reincarnate to startContinue reading “A Good Death”

The local school has a group of Mean Girls. Well, five mean girls and one mean guy they’re all clamoring to impress. This group is universally disliked, yet they play the game so perfectly that they hold all the power in the school. There’s also this one girl in the school who is their completeContinue reading “Mean Girls”

Every dysfunctional group, generally large families or large work places, has their appointed scapegoat. In my family that’s me. Perhaps I was the easiest to use since I’ve always refused to play nasty in return. Perhaps I was singled out simply because my personality singles me out from the rest of them who are allContinue reading “A Scapegoat Escaped”

Today I did what I have tried to do countless times before – I went no contact with my immediate family. I’ve blocked each of them from my phone, so now I can’t even let them poke me into a response. Today my dad yelled at me for being a liar who claims health issuesContinue reading “No Contact”

Today we had a sit down with my grandparents to talk about the welfare of a couple teenagers in the family. My husband and I are trying to do our best to help them succeed but anyone who ever has legal control over them gives them little more than trauma and dysfunctional life lessons. AtContinue reading “The Trauma that Keeps on Giving.”

There’s a medical treatment I get every weekday afternoon. Because of Covid-19 safety precautions patients are no longer allowed in the waiting room with couches and chairs but rather must wait on the solid surfaces of the elevator lobby. I’m always a few minutes early, but even a few minutes is too long for myContinue reading “When Defeat Seems Imminent.”

Imagine walking around your lawn and there’s a slightly wet spot. Each time you walk around your lawn that spot seems wetter and wetter. One day you realize that the waterline from the street to your house runs through that wet spot, so clearly you have a leaking pipe. Responsibly you call a plumber toContinue reading “Pipe Dreams”