Mania isn’t the relief of depression. That’s a common misconception. Mania presents itself differently for everyone and can evolve over ones lifetime. Currently for me mania makes my entire body buzz as my brain slowly shifts side to side unable to focus. There’s no sleep for however many days it lasts. It’s common to seek relief from the intense experience through intense action like gambling sprees and permiscuity. But that’s a fleeting relief with lasting backlash.
When sleep finally comes I feel myself falling from a high point to somewhere soft. And eventually I awake in the depths of darkness.
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