Today I did what I have tried to do countless times before – I went no contact with my immediate family. I’ve blocked each of them from my phone, so now I can’t even let them poke me into a response.
Today my dad yelled at me for being a liar who claims health issues but has none. I yelled back. And I’m out now. I have a dozen diagnosed chronic health conditions and test results that point at more diagnosis headed my way in the near future. I am incredibly ill and likely always will be. Stop for a moment and consider living a chronically ill and disabled life forever. Now imagine having people take that struggle of yours and publicly use it as a means to tear you down. No more.
I nearly died this week. Three emergency room visits, one urgent care visit, three specialists visits, and two trips to the lab for tests to be run. Of course all of the above could only say they’re concerned but don’t know what’s happening and sent me away to be someone else’s complicated case. Thankfully my primary is amazing and spent the week on phone calls and texts with me, even though she practices four hours away. And she fixed me.
I nearly died this week, and I do wonder what my family would have said. Doubtless they would have made some assumption that left me to blame.
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